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March 27 For the moment.all i need is a bucket.quote for the week = "whoa.OH my GOOdness gracious."
Its been super cramped these days. Hectic. Random.Bloody.
evrything "WRONG" Has been compiled over. tumbled and squeeze on me.
Its been a heck of a ride.The more i thought of what i still have to do, forced to do,
The worse my head goes ding dong.
I don't have any idea wth people wants these days.HELLO just TELL alright.
A piece of big slap lips. Whats that for? TALK and communicate please in the RIGHT way alright.
GOSH i'd had enough feeling all pathetic at the rate of being shoot at by words. DEMotive critiscm.
WHAT DO YOU seriously want?
* I have already got my head sratched bold.
i aint a robot eh. Whoa.. architorture!!! architoreture!!!! WAHHHH!!!!! ( im insane) Well sometimes i thought to myself...Hey..maybe these people are just feeling insecure.
They wanna feel BIG. Happening.In controlled.Or they just love the rate of shooting nails out with words.
Or they themselves are paranoid!
I can't sleep. I can't feel fine enough to eat.
EVERYTHING. down from school projects, to people, relationship, lecturer,.....its all WRONG these days.
That is why in the chinese term, I felt nausea most of my down time.
I'm down with gastritist but i aint feeling right enough for food intake.
No matter how much i love the indulgence.
HEck.... BRIng me a BUCKET. Im about to throw up!
In the dark. Middle of the night. i got myself the word of god. The bible. and found these words that ring so much.
proverbs 26:2
Like a sparrow in its flitting, like a swallow in its flying, a curse that is causeless does not alight ...... tam huei liq archi-being-tortured So whatever it is. I aint feeling it. PLease no more, cause i dont deserve it. seriously. March 06 eccentricLife's much more of a roller coaster than what i expected it to be.
Life's life for heaven sake.
God make me understand it.
I act like a piece of white paper, even when i know people might stay off from me or even judge me for what i am.
I am eccentric to some, some says its plain cuteness,(hehe), ,some think im fun, open-minded,some thinks im crazy, some thinks im a hooker....(lol).well, to me im honest thats all.
I would LOVE to find someone else eccentric enough to beat me. These days wears me out to the max, things come flashing about faster than any jetplanes.
I still laugh at the idiotic moments i had long ago, and i smirk at the thought of that.
These motions of my lips going open and close, sometimes lead some of the "spectators" wondering what's wrong with me.
I aint wrong lol, im just at some nostalgic mood on my own.and i'm having fun on my own. yeah that says it all. I had fun.
Well mainly because the only person i can find sharing the same "eccentricness" might most probably be my sister.
Awww, cwin if i were to have you always , i would. lol...( though u were more emotional than ever)
But i aint gonna stay as a widow becouse you suit me...haha!!!
Life's life and i love it better with a dose of eccentricness, life's a bore without it.
God i thank you for these. though it may feel bitter at times, i still believe i'll catch the most of life before i end it.
This is what i pray...life is what ia im for.
huei liq
The eccentric one
January 03 The best of 2007Here comes 2008...
It felt like a doze of relief when 2007 waved goodbye. Its bout time for a new start. A whole loads of happenings and a whole load of struggles(to grow up mainly) It may be too much of words to put for last year, so i'd made a list... The best of 2007: social:1. college life 2. new acquaintance 3. parties 4. old dudes! 5. mamak life Entertainment: music : 1.What comes around goes around, justin Timberlake ( i replayed it every min in a month) 2.Worthy of, justin timberlake again 3. Take you there, Sean kingston 4. Please Don't stop the music, Rihana 5. Secret, Jay chou (my all time fav) Movies : 1. Transformer the movie(duh) 2 Resident evil 3 3. Secret (yessh jay chou) 4. Epic movie 5. 300 Materials : 1. 5200 phone 2. driving license 3. A new house 4. Macbook 5. Drawing tools People : 1. Hostel mates 2. college friends authors : 1. Tom Holt 2. Sue Thomas Transport : 1. Ktm 2. Double decker 3. singapore airline 4. London's tube 5. Bicycle and the list goes on and on...we'll see how 2008 will be, lets pray for the best!!! October 27 boys and little manIt was an eavesdrop moment when i leaned over my sister's shoulder to hear clearly what my cousin have to say. Boobs discovery Little man chasing teenage girls MONSTERS??? lol (sorry guys) October 20 Aging at the age of 8teen What's that above??
LOL...it is me aging little by little everyday.
Fort minor was rapping morning call to me...
"times up times up"...
The hectic of it and my neighbour's incessant punjabi song was loud and beating fast.
I was planning to lay down on bed all morning.
But all that made up chaos woke me up for an early start.
"what the" was my morning greetings to my maid.
She's awfully lazy and unwilling to do anything useful as easy as preparing decent food for us.
I was starving and my tummy calls for food.
But the breakfast table was empty,squeaky clean.
without hesitation,i grabbed a bottle of water and some bread.
got on a skimpy pants,tie up my hair and head towards the bike.
Yeah...it's time for some morning exercise.
Uphill and downhill...
Up and down i go...
5 minutes on the starting,i started to wind down.
My tights felt sour and stiff.
I'm out of breath.
My first reaction was another.."what the"
I'm suprised myself..how can i?
Last year i was still athlete captain of the school's team.
I was still up and running.
Still cappable of winning championships.
One year later,i'm here gasping for air after 5 minutes of
warming up.concluding~failure.
I pushed myself to not give up cycling.
Then it started out 10 minutes uphill and dwon hill.
Nearly 45 minutes later, i felt like the world's biggest giant have his foot on
me for a looooong duration.
I barely can open my eyes.
It's all blur....im confused as well.
maybe i'm just tired.maybe.
Heck i speed back home...
My legs start to sleep.
They refuse to move.
I was helpless ,myself.
I reached the living hall.
I start walking around to regain my strength.
3 minutes...nothing works...
My left leg called for a stop.
My visions paused and stars start popping out.
Both my eyes swelled and my ears felt like be\leeding.
I ran into the guest's bathroom.
Sat down on the floor,i felt like it's end time.
My will is still determine and strong.
I wont let myself go dead or faint or whatever is it....
I start crawling out of the bathroom...
Until...
something felt awkward coming out of my tummy...
"GROWL'
holy craps....gastric arrived as well!!!
My throat called for deliverance...
I was puking already...wth...
Before i lay down completely on the floor,
i said a little prayer.
The rest is history and i'll never thought i died or something.
But the fact is i survive the attack.
I still have no idea what is the cause of it.
But i felt like end time was there that time.
Some how my prayer saved me.
Thank God.
",Lord,i'm too young to die."
~amen~
About all aging and stuff,i think it's my hectic college life and a part of me
that is so reluctant to be alive again.
I need some exersice.
engine RESTART.
October 17 Apple is always a sin..http://www.apple.com/ Apple is a fruit...Neeedless to say.
It was highly suspected by scientist
that it's the exact fruit that adam and eve had taken a bite from
the forbidden garden...
Heck,I'm now tasting an apple myself.
A laptop named by it.
It's structure and colour is gorgeous.
The system is top ranked.
Surfing the net is 3 times faster than usual.
The whole packeage juz makes it as perfect as sin.
The more i use it, the more addicted i got to it.
Whilst the more time is wasted on it.
mass production of useless action have been made and fake out...
infront of the profound object.
LOL...it was like curse of the adam and eve's happening.
First i was fascinated by ipod-icar-icomputer-macbook-iphone...
now it's safari..
heck heck heck...doomed by APPLE's product!! X(
check it out how perfect this sin is...http://www.apple.com/...
^^ hopefully ypou find it hooky...
I love apple and i hate it as well...plain addiction...
 October 07 Pending modeI ignored the morning call. Narrow daylight creep through the wide window of my room. I was feeling rather lay back particularly everyday. But today my heart got even heavier. Things are not done.I have had plans,and simple things to be accomplish. But none seems to gather around.It was plain emptiness of hope. Nothing i planned have press the start button. Everything was on a pending mode. Even my very soul.I'm stuck. I'm waiting and waiting and craving for the moment when everything will be done. But the fact is it will be long. My stay, my grades, my assignments, my friends, my own decision are all on the yellow light. Pending. My life, my own selfish desires need some oil to start it off. First i will need God. I need a change... September 22 living with gorgeous buildings Man made structures.They are artificial yet a genius product brought to the world. God made the world, he created every thing, including the smartest living creatures, the homosapiens.The same way god crated us to have the same gift to create..Thus buildings are one of the creations that i find so facinating. It looks more like an art than a building. The entire building is underneath.3 floors in total. The steel above looks more like a bunny's ear or a sailing ship. The main entrance to the building lays here. The 'roof' is made netirely by glass, to allow sunlight into the underground building. The art musuem is an art itself. Brilliant interior where lights form the above shine in. To dad, hopefully when your there in Japan, you'd be able to take a picture of this. A view of the building from the top. this musuem interpret itslef brilliantly as an art musuem where it expose the art form its own sturcture. (._.) Applause to Cesar Pelli for another tasty treat of his design.
September 17 you're the jerk of my lifei have wanted to ask you these...
Only if i had the guts to ask you face to face, but the origins of birth had made me unable to do so. what were you thinking when you stare at her like that? what was your intention when you brag all about your past success? Why do you always say your oh-so good looking? Was that to spice me up abit? Why do you have me waiting all the time? Why do you always accuse me of stuff i never know? Why do you have to be so perfect? Was that to make me hate you? When you talk, i felt like a jerk. coz all you would tell is what i've done wrong. When you walk, i felt ugly. coz you got it all. When you smiled at her,i felt the pain. coz you have her in your mind. I would love to just sit down and be a slugger. I would love to let my hair down and close my eyes to it. I could just rest my mind, and die spiritually inside. I could just be more ordinary like anyone else. But i have no choice,nothing can break this relationship. It's everlasting,till the end. That's a plan,i have to live with it. I compare myself with you evryday. I take every aspect of my life seriously. I became a perfectionist. I cried when liltle things went wrong. I cried when things never go my way. I cared so much about things in life. I compete to take the trophy. I became isane. I grew pride and ego. I can't take critic. I have myself to blame. Coz you're the jerk of my life. I have to overtake you somehow. You know who you are. But you will never know you're the jerk. (and for respect,i can choose not to use it this time.) (sorry for calling you a jerk) -you are though- September 13 Cesar who?Ahh, my recent crush.....Cesar Pelli.
I've been seeing him quite a lot these days....
here's a lovely pic of him..... any ways. ..i've been seeing him so much these days,i got bored of him.....pelli, do forgive me. (one reason for my insanity)+ =i was haunted by my lecturer...to do two projects..which both involve the great Cesar, who designed our gorgeous KLCC. (bet lots of u dunno ) (reason two for my insanity)+ =the train stopped four times today EXcatly infront of me!!! (how blessed!) (1 lil two lil three lil reasons)+ =im tired. worn out.So much is required to be done. Much energy is needed for the last survival. (forth reason)+ =too overwhelmed by the beauty of my computer, mac book,(lol), and i finally got what i want, a love that will never end. (five)(highly rated)+ =3 out of 5 family members are celebrating their birthday this week, another heart cry for my piggy bank. (i love u guys no matter how much money i ll need to use up for the presents...) (x.x) muax muaxh oxoxoxoxoOxOXOXOC to dad, mom, and sis. forgive me for being naughty . and be thankful im being sweet sumtimes. i thank God for the present of you guys. I cant picture myself without u folks.(though annoying sometimes) September 02 Let us wave it better next time... C what the others have to say>>>(www.serigala-london.net/m50/home.php)
>>> beauty isn't it?
It would just be a halter of thoughts, if people actually know the real feeling of having their country to celebrate its independence.
Every single independence day that has pass by, 18 times to me (to be precise), I felt nothing. NOTHING. I don’t even bother about watching the telly for the celebration. I don’t think it’s ever necessary to do that, not to mention going to the Dataran Merdeka. Ahem, to be very honest…I don’t think those that I know, people around me, my course mates, seniors, roommate, housemate, friends, acquaintance, family, or my parents care much more or less about it. To have the eyes to be seen to all these, is a heart felt pain, whatever results to the thoughts may be worse! I wasn’t really happy with our government servants on the merdeka eve. Whatever they showed that day makes me wonder if we are ever to reach the 2020 dreams ahead. It might just be a brilliant imagination. It was after 5pm. Peak hours for the traffic. Heck,my friend and i had just finished our lectures. We were driving rather slowly that day. Not rushing or what so ever. But it was a dreaded pain when we saw those “hungry ghost” standing merely one km ahead looking for preys. Our car was stopped immediately. The driver has failed to follow one of the rules, seat belts weren’t on. Okay, we were wrong. Obviously. We handed over the identity cards, the P license and asked him to go on and summon us. It doesn’t matter. We need to be righteous no matter what. He’s answer freaked me out BIG time…he uttered: “ betul mau kena saman kah?” We said go ahead. Yes. He raised up he’s eyebrows, mixture of confusion and surprise was on his face.
Then he asked again: “ awak Christian kah?” We said : “ ya kristian.Kenapa?” He asked: “Okey, poket ada berapa?” Driver: “ Kami student tak ada banyak.” Government guys: “ 30, 20 ada?” Driver (still quite calm) : “5 ringgit adalah.” G, guys( abit disappointed) : “ kawan tak ada?”(pointing filthy fingers at us) Driver: “ tak sudah habis sekolah, habis guna”
At the end of the answer he knew right away that we rather have the summons than bribe these guys for kopi-o. Surprisingly, by god’s grace, he smiled at us (one of the most dissapointed ones), and waved us off. I was so SURPRISED!!! We thanked god, and went home. This is a real test for us. It was rather tempting to walk the easy way when you face difficult times, but this time we succeeded. We were relief and glad .But deep down, I particularly felt awful, for his greediness and his dirty tricks. These guys weren’t playing around. They want money, and they could do a lot to achieve it. It was a real pain to see all this happening when it’s oh so near the Independence Day. What more to say when it’s year 2007, the year for “ improvement”, as our prime minister stated. Yeah, hopefully it is. Hopefully it will be a real breakthrough for the next year when we shout “ merdeka!” “merdeka” “ merdeka” again. I would love to see myself getting more fond towards my country too. Hopefully
August 24 Tam Huei Liq gets an award AGAIN!
Sweet fancy the erratic weather we have here. It was raining heavily at first, and then the hot sun came out from no where and started burning again.
Silently, I was sitting in front of my second best buddy, the computer, rushing off a very important task….and at the same time, sweat out all my liquids.
If it hadn’t been my dad complaining I’m so pro at wasting electricity, I would have had the air condition running. But I was obedient and thoughtful enough that it’s both beneficial for me when I’m sweating. (slim down and be a good steward) It was also due to the condition of the ever changing weather, I was down with sickness, adding my mood to the red mode.(aka dangerous to mess around)
I‘ve had visitors for the past week and I’m very keen to tell you that they were weird... They came, they had some tea and coffee, they chit chatted with me, and complained about my name. My precious, Beautiful name!!! (Now they are playing with the hidden, sleeping volcanic mountain.
Well it was the same today. It’s not like I had complains for my name from the same visitors, but it’s like the MUST thing to do in the list when it comes to visiting me.
I was playing friendly, though sometimes sarcastically, joking that they should go before I chase them out. I’m at the midst of doing assignments before all the visiting. And I am very keen to finish it off A.S.A.P.
Today it was bit different from the others; the extra sensitive complaint was from someone I rather say I was annoyed with.
“Lunch time! Lunch time!” the endless fanatic shouts will automatically come out from my aunt’s mouth whenever the clock struck 3pm. I had to tolerate, and immediately shut down my computer, run all the way down the stairs,(it aint an easy job to do due to the fact that it was a loooooooong spiral stairs, just like the fairy tale castle ones)..new sweats starts forming again when I reached the dining room. Tiring.
3 visitors were there, sitting at the dinner table. All of them digging into the delicious soup of the day. We were having a good time discussing about other interesting stuff bout life...and all of a sudden, she came into the picture…..
The complainer: Oh yes, I’ve always wanted to ask you this question, why is it that you were given a name like that?
Me: umm well, huei was supposed to represent intelligence, which I am now… (Grinning), And liq is for beautiful or gorgeous, which very obviously stated in me …. (Teeth grinding on the complainer)
The complainer: Oh, but it’s very hard to remember your name you know…(how stupid can she be? I mean it’s just a 3 short lettered word) (what’s wrong with her memory?)
Me: Oh is it? Then try to call me something else next time (ha-ha)
The complainer: (she looks a bit annoyed) Oh, but I was thinking maybe you can have an English name, like me.
Me: Nah too plain, not unique enough, my parents named me that because there are too many similar names in this world. So I don’t think I should change it. (Smirked)
The complainer: Its okay wan, (her Chinese slang starts slipping in)( good gracious), as long as it’s easier to remember, I really think you should lor.
Me: nolar (imitating her), I think huei liq sounds good, right Cwin? Its so sweet and I love it…(winning smile) (knowing my sister will always be on my side)
Cwin: ya. (Shy = false humility)
………………..she went on digging in the soup……….. A bit annoyed by my self pride and narcissism.
At the end of the day, I can only thank God for my thick skin and my sarcastic personality. And also, for my unique name: huei liq ((x.x)
The year’s most prone to get complaints for your name award goes to… Tam huei liq!!!
(How’d I wish there’s such award) (._.)
August 22 i miss you...i really doEveryday.....each day....past by just like that. Without a hint, i'm growing everyday,mentally and physically as well. My feelings are always up and down.Like a boat on a rocking sea.Many people come and go in my life.Some are just by passer, some stay and mark something in your life and then leave.There's this particular person that leave a deep mark in a section of my heart.... and i missed him dearly.I cried for the loss of him.I want to see him again...(only if i could) We'd been so close together,just like peanut butter and jelly.Nothing ,(except food) can set us apart.We'd went through ups and downs in life together..our bonds are very strong. I remember i used to stare at him.When he was going through puberty,ahem 13....he's growing gorgeously each day.He'd got everything a hot guy would have.Big beautiful eyes,sharp small nose,oval face,and he's at the height of 175 at the age of 14!!! i was a head shorter than him at the same age!!!( and i had stop growing since then) We were much more distance when we are stepping in teenage hood.We hardly see each other.Maybe twice a year.Or if luckier,more than twice.He was more quiet than before,and he acted really weird when he come for a visit.He stays miles away from where i am.Only on special occasion,we ll have a time to meet up. Both of us were really active in school.We were involved in the athletes,and both won loads for the school,the state as well.( but he's way better)He was chosen as the state representative,on the other hand, i lost the game,ending up 5th place.(x.X) Life moves on each day, leaving me yearning to see him all the time.After he's visit back then at the year 2002,i missed him even worse.he slept in my room,he cuddled my stuff toy,well nearly everything he touched,i remembered and i touched it again(lol)(freaky me).I really really liked him. At the year 2003,when both of us aged barely 15,i had a phone call that morning that changed my life.I was busy with homework. PMR..A goverment test.It was an early phone call,from dad....I still have the conversation stucked in my mind after so many years. The phone call... dad: helo. me:helo dad: huei liq, do you remember Brian? me: ya,of course!!!( getting excited,tone going up) me: y? dad: well, you see... ......................................................................................umm how to put the thing is, well he planned to come here. me: really?!!! (more exciting tone)(toes clapping) dad:but then..........(pause) me:why?(vry curious tone) dad:ummm, he's in the hospital right now. me:Why? (still sound excited) (was thinking minor stuff) dad: Brian's dead.he....(my mind blurs out).....accident....(i cant hear clearly).....head......dad.....motor..........blah blah...blah....confirm died........blah blah.....wrote letter.....blah blah blah.......ran away.........blah blah...fight........blah blah..... seriously,i have no idea what he's yapping about, but i get the picture.In my entire life,i shocked myself for the first time.I am never speechless or lost for words before.I had never been so dumbfounded and confused before.It felt like a stone ..BIG stone fell on my head. me:(speechless)..........(tears..big drops).....(blur sight,mouth wide open,gasping for air) dad: | ||||||||||||||||||||||||
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